Monday, October 01, 2007
Dear Diary,
i'm changing from bad to worst... i didnt know what got in to me... what's happening??? i went out to meet enghan adrain n dyon at yishun... den met up wif cheryl sis after dyon went off... we went to watch a movie... Balls of Fury... den we went Bishan Pub... i brought Grace along... den we order Drinks... n play pool... i drank n got drunk... i walk out wif grace n told her many things... n i send her off... dyon the extra follow... duno for wad... den send her off le i went to the playground to relax... hoping to let the giddiest goes off before i reach home...
Feel for stress... so many things are going around my head... duno wad to do first... Feel like dying like that... as i rested on the bridge... n dyon he sat there waiting... as i closed my eyes... Why isnt there any rain to cover my tears that are crying in my heart... or a soul to calm me down... feel like shouting n making a freak out of myself... but i was too tired... dyon nagged at me asking me to go back... as the nite is getting late... i slack slowly... feeling really confused... n wanting to punch some one... instead i used dyon... sorry i shout at you... or keep a distance away from you... i was too stress out... many things happen n i am scared... its touching dat ur care about me... "must look after me" hahaha but dun waste ur afford on me.. a girl who hates herself...n has many disgusting remarks given by people from the past that she just cant keep erasing it from her mind... For wad?
Awaits death to bring me away... when the rite time comes...
i will say "i will bring your pain n mine away... n thats the time the world will go peace"
