Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Dear Diary,
so many days i had never turn in near to type my story its getting complicated and i now still dont know what to say... we went out on sunday than irene and her bro and dyon went to play arcade... i didnt play cause its a waste of $$$$$$ i can say... jean was totally shock when she heard me the verni saying that out of my mouth... but its true... jean and me talk in private and she did ask him about 'US' she told me the answer was so oddvious lor... i still dont
know until now... i currently cant tell what he's thinking... and waiting for his answer... he still treats me like a total stranger when we met and i just will move away cause no point coming close to you myself and hug you and hold you i will end up the same like before the old me... and i dont want that... i hate my old self... then we went to eat thai beef noodles... and i realise is dyon did move near to me but i jus dont care bout him... the feeling i felt in him first when will are in the acrade is like he is very confused hurt sad... i dont know... i want to ask him but i cant... something stop me from doing that... than at far east... i bought shoes a pair of white high heels... irene was the first to know cause of my height haha... that's funny...
i've felt he had problems but he doesnt want to share them with me... but he jus told jean when we r on e bus on the way to serangoon... i overheard abit... i'm sori... but didnt heard alot... during the few peaceful days... i really want to send him a sms but i didn't... i really miss my guy... but i use work to stress myself and now i becoming nearly a working woman... irene jean scold me about that but in the end they still accept me being stress cause someone didnt want to talk to me and reply my sms and answer my calls... that's why... but i realise working is not so bad... people goes work with a tired face... though i'm tired and keep yawning i still feel happy going... hahaa...
after we got down the bus... we walk to have our dinner... only the three of us jean me and dyon... we pass by a place then he hold my hand but later i let go... cause (cant tell) than we went for dinner than took a bus back... he fetch jean home his sis.. but not me... feeling funny... but i knew what's going on at the back... they going to talk all the way... i just went home but my family came to fetch me instead... so good free ride home...
than my sis suggusted to have night and let's go man... its was a history when i last run... and i and my 2nd sis run out... pass the highway before the bridge and than we run back... than reach back my house i nearly black out cause run until so far without any proper excerise and jus run... hahaha... then dad and 2nd sis lynn went out for 2nd run... i and 3rd sis jean went but she cant go far so i and her take turns on the bike... than later i got hold on the big bike... the new bike we had... than me and 3rd sis ride up slope before dad call us back again cause its was dark already... than we went home... we all sweat like hell... water taps i can say...
than yesterday we brought the two pups of ours out for a jog but it was a bad expreience with lexus so strong... he nearly went off leash... but 2 people is better than 1 to hold him back... so tired too... and now my legs are in pain but its ok... excerise more is good...
