Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Dear Diary,
its really a long time already since my computer broke down... i was unable to log-in until yesterday night... a lot of things happen... very sad... i broke up with 'HIM', a friend stop talking to me (dunnoe what i did wrong to him), 1 white hamster - MIA (dead or alive i dunnoe), 1 baby hamster died, and many other things... but these are ok... the worst is my computer (MY LIFE) a lot of my stuff has been lost after my mom reformat it... of coz i cried.. many years of hardwork,
my work, my photos, everything, GONE!!!! becoz of that i quallered with my both parents quite a fierce fight... later i called marni and told her everything.... she stunted. then i continue doing my presentation...
Ok i stop the topic here before i get depress again...
Than today morning as usual but got no feeling to eat my breakfast.. so i went to skool with a empty stomach... then my gastric came still can tahan... but no1 knows... den later we have a presentation about the photos we took in orchard a few weeks ago... xiuting & I were waiting for Lionel to help us but he was nowhere to be found until we called him... damn bloody hell... my thermometer just went up... During the presentation, I was so nervious... stage fright came to me... i was unable to speak properly... but i try to calm myself down but lionel was there pushing thinking that everything will go smoothly but '
NO'... than Mr Zo was telling about our mistakes... he pinpoint about lionel's mistake i later felt ok than... den Mr Alex class was cancelled... SIAN... but nvm... i still wasnt done with his homework... Lucky... but later have to meet Nic for the Nacli Camp forms... Seeing so many people sick and sad... i went crazy suddenly at 1st, i went jogging with shirley den 2nd, i jog 1/2 round and asked adrain to play basketball with me, 3rd, i play basketball again but this time with shirley weiqiang n chimliang... until i nearly went strengthless and breathless hoping to faint at that moment to stop what i was doing... sooo tired and down from friendship & relationship... just feel like dying right away... den later when i jus walk out of the skool compound, irene called saying fabian is coming back to skool to 1 to 1 talk and might end up in a fierce fight.. i walk back like a zombie... den standing in front of jean without thinking thru my brain i scolded her den i walk away... doing things are unnessary knowing its wrong to do but i was aready tired and weak... i called jean later and explain to her.. lucky she understand me... whereas not many friends of mine understand my attitude even some of my so-call close frends...
